fuck i should just. go in and apply for a job at trader joes. like in the next week or two. im at least TELLING myself i could probably get a job there? the local one i shop at all the time from what i see hires a lot of young (probably)lgbt people and i think i could fit in with the like..friendly atmosphere v well it would be, a good environment to adjust to a retail job in and minimally detrimental to my mental health u kno?..plus i buy like ALL my fucking food there so the 10% employee discount would be…a pretty decent chunk off cost of living for cat and i and also i try/know/cook with a lot of the food & know the layout of the store already like i’d have no problem knowing where to stock stuff, maybe thats weird but its not even that giant of a store so..anyway its a like..apply in person with a paper application type of deal and i really want to get a haircut before trying to do this? so i guess i need to like..make money on commissions first or something? im trying really hard to think about the future and what to do, this seems like my best shot for now i guess..genuinely i feel like id be more likely to get hired at trader joes than like target or smth cos they already know me to some extent, at least some of the employees, and i think Attitude or whatever,just having the manager like me is more likely to uhh get me by, just i think the hiring process may be slightly less detached if that…….makes sense, .. my dads said hes talked to the manager at The Club or whatever before & shes like, a nice chill lady so…………………..thats whats on my mind thanks for coming to my ted talk